(Oct. 20, 2007)
Up and down the rollercoaster goes/I’m on this ride and where it stops/If it stops/I wish to know/A glimpse of sunshine/A cool breeze escaping from the coast/Gives me a sign/I’m destined for a Tropical Depression/The sun fades/The wind is overcome with hatred/Spitting hail at me with a vengence/The storm rolls in/Over the hills/What can I do/The war inside my heart rages/Can I hang on/Or will the fiery bolts of electricity pierce through my body/Leaving me numb
(May 2007)
Let me take you in my arms/And shower you/With sparkling Love/Let me caress you with the fniest of pleasures/Let me show you off to all my friends/Let me love you/As one loves like tomorrow is not promised/Like a delicate flower that blooms in spring/My love for you grows rapidly/Let me kiss your lips ever so gently/Let me run my fingers through your dark hair/Let me hold you and never let go/Let me ride with you/Like a horse galloping through fields of beauty/Where two become one/And romance overwhelms/Let me lay with you in the tall grass/And count the stars/That light up the night’s sky/Let my love wash over you/The way the ocean washes over the sandy coasts/Let me learn you/And teach you of me/Let me make love to you in the rain/Let the water trickle down our bodies/As we enter an eternal state of bliss/Let me take your picture/Right there/Just as you are/So I can always feel the way I feel now/Don’t move/Don’t speak/Let me live in this moment/Forever
(March 23, 2008)
Standing in this wide open field/I could be surrounded by people/But still have this insatiable feeling of lonliness/I close my eyes/I can see the demons taking over/The disease consumes me/I spin around in circles/At increasing speeds/I open my eyes/I’m standing still/At least I’m still standing/I close my eyes once more/They all tell me it’s in my head/So is everything/I would say/But no one would get it/It’s just me and my mind/Locked up inside this body/There is no way out/The key has been tossed/To the monsters standing guard over my soul/I quietly begin to shed a tear/Quickly wipe it away/I dare not to let them know/I’ve sunk this deep/And it is here that the voices awaken/To speak/To scream/To cry/Inside my head/A war is raging/Euphoric peace battles the brutal massacre of sanity/Tearing my flesh apart/With threats of eternal damnation/The life I used to live/The feeling I used to have/Sucked completely out of me/I open my eyes/I’m lying battered and bruised/In this open field/Because wide open spaces is all I’m left with/I open my mouth/And all that leaks out is a faint sigh/All I can feel is pain/Which somehow makes it all ok/Tears dry on their own/And what a shame this has become/To hate myself so much/Not a single drop of love/Not one
(August 2007)
Teardrops melt on my pillowcase/As I lie in bed, longing for your sweet embrace/My heart beats a silent scream /At the thought of you loving the one that’s just not me /My eyes grow heavy/My mind is ready/My sight grows dim/And I’m falling in/Swimming through the peaceful blur of fog in the night/Where the wild things grow/Where the moon and stars shine down on these two lonesome souls/Where smiles and laughter come to sight/And everything seems to be alright/Though love is tainted and it melts into a puddle of bliss/As our lips collide/In this suicidal kiss/And here I am/Left fighting for something that I will never miss/Loving every moment of which I am enduring/But now the sunshine seems to be on its way/Creeping over the hills in the distance/Beaming down on me/Through my bedroom window/And covering my pure existence/I open my eyes/I realize/And I am aware/I have just woken/From a Beautiful Nightmare
There will be more. I have to find my notebooks. Feel free to tell me what you think of these though. I love feedback.
